WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!

Suddenly I feel like i'm this galeel adab ass

There's this guy who works in a place called Game Track and this guy is a friend of mine, but I've been ignoring him for about 5 days now because I don't really feel like hanging out with him, and he has been calling me once everyday since and now I really feel bad for ignoring him, and I want to give him a good excuse but I hate lying to him :S
I think I'll tell him that my grandfather(who passed min zaman) died 4 days ago...
Should I say it wala la2?!

My Biggest Mistake

Regret has become some kind of habit of mine, and is something I really hate about myself.
I always do something big or small, good or bad it doesn't matter I always regret doing it and I think I made a really bad decision and I've been beating myself about it.
I stayed in Jeddah instead of going to highschool in Malaysia, I think I would've been a stronger and better person.
I might be better in English and I would always count on myself...
I'm hoping, I'm praying that I have made the right decision.

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School started a few days ago and it's not too bad, 1st year of highschool seems ok
I hope I get good grades :/

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Hebz, why no more posts???

Malaysia truely MY ASS!!

Well, Malaysia isn't the way I expected it to be :(
Everyone said that I'll have fun except one person, and that person was right...
It's either Malaysia is stupid or I go to the wrong places, I can't find the CDs n DVDs I want
FUCK MALAYSIA, I hope it burns... lamman arja3 Jeddah inshalla
And just to make my trip more sucky... my dad and brother are always makin' fun of everything I do, HEY I like going out alone, why the fuck do you care???
I like going out alone without knowing where I'm going and just do whatever the hell I want!!

And right now, I sitting in a lounge in the hotel lobby for the free wireless :P and they have this ragga9a (Egyptian dancer) that is very stupid and everyone is staring at her (even the staff) How do Malaysians like this kind of thing :S:S w msha'3ileen Egyptian music... I want to throw up
w fee Linkin Park fil TV bas ma76oo6 mute :(

Bored as hell, I need someone to talk to :(

UPDATE AFTER A FEW SECONDS!!!
the dancer is sitting next to me and she is yelling at the staff... loooooooool

*takes deep breath*...
I bought new glasses, goin' to Malaysia tomorrow inshalla, gonna miss alot of people, might not blog there but I'll try to, my head really hurts, goin' to Casper & Gambini's for breakfast with friends at 8:30 a.m to say goodbye, I forgot to pack my bag so I'll do it in the morning inshalla, want to buy alot of stuff but I have a really tight budget lil2asaf...
*breathes heavily*

I have two brothers, one is going to collage in Malaysia and the other is turning 2 thanawi but he also wants to go to school in Malaysia, and my dad suggested that I go with them :S:S highschool and collage but I don't want to...

I know that Malaysia is great but I already have a life here and there are people I'll miss and things I want to do here and people I want to meet

I don't know what to do... what do ya think??