I'M F***ING GOING CRAZY!!
OUR F***ING PHYSICS TEACHER F***ING TOLD US TO MAKE A F***ING BA7TH ON ANYTHING IN PHYSICS!!
AND I CAN'T FIND SHIT!!
IT'S BEEN MORE THAN 3 HOURS AND I'VE FINALLY STOPPED!! F*** HIM AND F*** THE 2 F***ING GRADES THAT I'LL GET IF I F***ING DO IT!!
F*** PHYSICS, F*** THE INTERNET, F*** GOOGLE, F*** THE PERSON WHO INVENTED GOOGLE, AND F*** NEUTIN (OR WHATEVER HIS NAME IS)
AAAAAAAAAAHHHH SON OF A B@@@@ MOTHERF@@@ER A$$@@@@ AAAAAAH
FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
*breathes heavily*
I'm fine now

In my darkest hour- Megadeth

In my hour of need

ha! no, you're not there...

and though I reached out for you

wouldn't lend a hand.

َ.

Through the darkest hour

grace did not shine on me.

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It feels so cold, very cold

no one cares for me.

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Did you ever think I get lonely ?

did you ever think that I needed love ?

did you ever think to stop thinking ?

you're the only one that I'm thinking of...

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You'll never know how hard I tried

to find my space and satisfy you too.

Things will be better when I'm dead and gone

don't try to understand, knowing you I'm probably wrong.

But, oh, how I lived my life for you!

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still you'd turn away

now as I die for you,

my flesh still crawls, as I breathe your name

all these years I thought I was wrong

now I know it was you!

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Raise you head, raise your face your eyes

tell me, who you think you are?

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I walk, I walk alone

into the promised land.

There's a better place for mebut it's far, far away

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Everlasting life for me

in a perfect world

but I gotta die first,please god send me on my way !

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Time has a way of taking time,

Loneliness is not only felt be fools.

Alone I call to ease the pain,

yearning to be held by you.

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Alone so alone, I'm lost

Consumed by the pain

the pain, the pain, the pain.

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Won't you hold me again?

And you just laughed, ha! ha! Bitch !

My whole life is work built on the past

but the time has come when all things shall pass

this good thing passed away.

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In my darkest hour

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!

Suddenly I feel like i'm this galeel adab ass

There's this guy who works in a place called Game Track and this guy is a friend of mine, but I've been ignoring him for about 5 days now because I don't really feel like hanging out with him, and he has been calling me once everyday since and now I really feel bad for ignoring him, and I want to give him a good excuse but I hate lying to him :S
I think I'll tell him that my grandfather(who passed min zaman) died 4 days ago...
Should I say it wala la2?!

My Biggest Mistake

Regret has become some kind of habit of mine, and is something I really hate about myself.
I always do something big or small, good or bad it doesn't matter I always regret doing it and I think I made a really bad decision and I've been beating myself about it.
I stayed in Jeddah instead of going to highschool in Malaysia, I think I would've been a stronger and better person.
I might be better in English and I would always count on myself...
I'm hoping, I'm praying that I have made the right decision.

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School started a few days ago and it's not too bad, 1st year of highschool seems ok
I hope I get good grades :/

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Hebz, why no more posts???

Malaysia truely MY ASS!!

Well, Malaysia isn't the way I expected it to be :(
Everyone said that I'll have fun except one person, and that person was right...
It's either Malaysia is stupid or I go to the wrong places, I can't find the CDs n DVDs I want
FUCK MALAYSIA, I hope it burns... lamman arja3 Jeddah inshalla
And just to make my trip more sucky... my dad and brother are always makin' fun of everything I do, HEY I like going out alone, why the fuck do you care???
I like going out alone without knowing where I'm going and just do whatever the hell I want!!

And right now, I sitting in a lounge in the hotel lobby for the free wireless :P and they have this ragga9a (Egyptian dancer) that is very stupid and everyone is staring at her (even the staff) How do Malaysians like this kind of thing :S:S w msha'3ileen Egyptian music... I want to throw up
w fee Linkin Park fil TV bas ma76oo6 mute :(

Bored as hell, I need someone to talk to :(

UPDATE AFTER A FEW SECONDS!!!
the dancer is sitting next to me and she is yelling at the staff... loooooooool